BYE 2012, HELLO 2013

Bless you 2013!!! Bless me oh Lord!!!

There is no one on earth as pleased as I am to be done with 2012. It will go on record that 2012 is the only year that I was convinced that the angel of death was sent to me twice but there must have been a change of course. Here is the deal, I know that only the good die young but I wish to die old. Death to me right now is not a stranger. For it took my loved one in the blink of an eye and left me shattered, bewildered and crushed. Then I came to know my own strength. Misfortunes never come singly. Bye bye 2012… I am so glad that I will never live to see you again!!! This is not a good bye, just a bye bye.

This year, I have a new spirit. To love life and to love those who love me deeply; to love the good Lord and appreciate his gift of life to me. Yes people, I now know that when you set out on a journey, it is not a guarantee that you will get there in one piece and in peace. It is by His mercies… It is not a fact that you will be alive, it is by His grace. I needed Jesus so badly that for Christmas I asked my mum to get me a ring Rosary. Good karma… I wanted that vibe so much that after battling with the decision to go to church on the last Sunday of 2012, I did go to church with my sister.

Smily me at the Shela beach on 1st January 2013

The first thing I said in the new year - BLESS YOU 2013 and after the new year's kiss - was I MADE IT, WE MADE IT!!!! I had no idea that I would. I was convinced that my time was up; I should have lived twice for each day that I lived and even then, that is still too young to go. I have no resolutions, none at all. What resolutions should someone have when they thought that 2012 was a year of change? A year of love and growth? A beautiful discovery only to be…. I should have seen it coming, you know… the calm before the storm. Especially for someone who has lived this life before, I should have seen it coming.

In 2013, I’m doing me, my family, my boo, my friends and God. To the strangers, I will offer a smile, to the hater a salute and to the lovers, more love.

Come harder 2013,

Nekoye