SHUFFLE OFF THIS MORTAL COIL

Till we meet...

When you are with someone and then they depart with no warning, you get confused. You die a little, your core shakes and your beliefs suddenly become meaningless. When death takes them away so suddenly and you know that they did not see it coming, it crushes your soul. You take yourself back to the last moments you shared with them. Suddenly, every moment you had together becomes very valuable. You appreciate every little thing; the time you spent together. A casual remark they made suddenly holds more weight than they had even intended. A sketch they made of your face with a new application on their gadget becomes the best picture of yourself that you have ever seen. The songs they played each morning makes you smile even though you whined each time you heard them play. It all comes back.

In the end, when you see a life come to an end, everything else is vanity. Meaningless, said the teacher; a chasing after the wind. You start to see life so differently and you begin to appreciate the small gestures and things that make you happy. You may want to give up and withdraw from the world but when you think of what they would want you to do; you hold your head up high and truly begin to live. You aim for happiness and peace of mind. You ignore the insignificant hurdles. You become grateful of all your selfless deeds because that is what feeds the soul and keeps it nourished. You yearn to do well. You struggle a little harder and climb a little faster. You have no time to waste. You want to leave your mark.

Drinking Beach house wine on the kitchen slab...

You want to mess up and clean up. Yes, you want to fail so that you can learn. You become weak alone and yearn for company. In a crowd, you straighten your spine, smile at everyone and give a standard reply, “I am OK and everything is fine.” The closest thing to reality you have is family…

But like all storms, the sky clears. Patiently I’ll wait.

“I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time

Know there was something that, and something that I left behind

When I leave this world, I'll leave no regrets

Leave something to remember, so they won't forget

I was here

I lived, I loved

I was here

I did, I've done, everything that I wanted

And it was more than I thought it would be

I will leave my mark so everyone will know

I was here

I want to say I lived each day, until I die

And know that I meant something in, somebody's life

The hearts I have touched, will be the proof that I leave

That I made a difference, and this world will see

I just want them to know

That I gave my all, did my best

Brought someone to happiness

Left this world a little better just because

I WAS HERE”

Reflective,

Nekoye