SOME DAYS ARE EASY...
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Hi readers! I must say that yesterday was one of my worst days during this whole mourning phase. It is not that I
haven’t been that extremely sad, but that I woke up by myself in a new apartment and
I did not have the urge to check my phone for any messages because I know that Charlie isn’t around.
His absence was so evident in my life that as I got up to make breakfast, I
started crying.
It was a Saturday when God put him to rest. That morning he
made me breakfast and I bid him farewell from his house. So on this Saturday
when I woke up all alone, it all came crushing down. It was messy. I just
couldn’t stop myself from crying. I took a shower and I’m pretty sure that when I put on the face
cream, there was a lot of tears mixed up in there. I miss Charlie a lot. We were
good friends and we were looking forward to our first year anniversary. He died on the 11th month, the exact date. Heart-breaking.
Saturday was the designated day to look around for a lovely
apartment with my best friend Celia. But I’d been crying from 11am to 2pm and I
couldn’t just stop. I found myself driving to Lynton’s Beauty World (Spa) and where booked
myself to a full manicure and pedicure so I could calm my nerves. A spa visit is always therapeutic to me.
I had my
shades on the whole time and I saw my nail technician look away in pity to let me wipe
my tears. It was a horrible morning and afternoon, save for the evening when my friends Alexandros, Lizz, Aggie and George came over to my house to keep me company. I thank God for such friendships. Some days are easy, while other are not.
Reflective,
Nekoye
Reflective,
Nekoye
I can only be empathetic from a far...but my invisible hugs are countless for you. You will get through this :-)) Love muffin :-)
ReplyDeleteYour strength is remarkable. Even just to write all this down (or type in this case), must be difficult. I used to be an avid journal person but when stuff got hard, the harder it got to put it all down.
ReplyDeleteBut, from reading your blog, which I have gone through in its entirety, you have amazing friends.
Stay fierce Simbaress.
Thanks girls, I write them sometimes in tears. Other times when am excited. Am too scared to go for therapy for many reasons and i feel like if I start this early, then every single problem i'll have I will have to go to the shrink. I don't want that even though my family thinks i should, so this is my counter therapy...
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